So I am about to go to bed but I have tons of thoughts going through my head. I think I am really home sick but at the same time I feel like I have no home. I don't live in Iowa really, and my heart isn't here in Illinois. I know my citizenship is in the Kingdom of God but I can't see that right now. I just want to be settled in and have a life, a job, a wife and kids. I am tired of school, I am tired of people having pity on me and seemingly talking down to me. I look at pictures of Zugspitzland and I just want to ecscape to there. I hate trying to sleep in this mentality. Another restless night I guess...