I was looking at my poetry tonight, which is something I like to do every once and a while when I am feeling uninspired. Some of it was crap, ok, a lot of it was crap. But the emotions behind the words were so strong. Let me give you some background. When I started writing poetry I was a junior in high school whose world was falling apart. I had battled depression for three years and had found that I was losing interest in the friends that I had. I was bitter towards girls and popular people. I was (and still am) a true romantic at heart. In my poems you could clearly see I was looking for that "one girl". I swore worse than all my friends and used some words that no one else even dared to. A lot of this stuff led me to becoming a Christian that summer. Now after I became a Christian I still swore for about six months and you can see that in my poetry as well. And so that whole senior year I was dealing with a TON of life changes and it was a flood of emotions which poured itself onto paper. I realized that a bunch of my poems were about girls, most in fact. I poured so much into them and never even told them how I felt, how silly. So much preoccupation with the hope that the next girl through the door will be "the one" and not on how I can serve her as a brother in Christ. And that isn't just then, but now as well. I've ben thinking about idolotry lately and I think an idol of mine may be the search for "the one". It really takes my mind off Christ a lot and I know that it shouldn't. I guess that I just need to continually give it up to God as it presents itself as a problem, and thats what I do. Anyway, I posted a poem on LIFE AFTER VIS from my senior year, enjoy.