Step out the front door, I breath deep to crisp spring air. Rather lifting to the spirits. I think about the past couple of days and the turmoil they have brought, and the joy they've uncovered. Yesterday (Thursday) it rained, so I went out in it and enjoyed it. Soon the grass will be green and we will be reminded of the power of God's renewing grace. As I was walking in the forest I was thinking/praying/talkin with my Jesus, telling Him about what I've been going through. I started thinking about next year and it being my last semester. I began to realize that I didn't even have to come back to Trinity next semester, I know this comes as a surprise to everyone, but it was just as much as a surprise to me. So I began to realize that I could live at home and take classes for a lot less than I could here at Trinity. So I prayed about it and felt that I was supposed to look into it. So thats what I did. I looked at the classes and figured out that it could be done, and I would still get my degree from Trinity. I called my parents and they were down with it, I told Steph and Jess and they were shocked and saddened as much as could be expected from two of my close friends. It was a sad day, but I knew if God wanted me to go, I would go as much as I wanted to stay here. So as I laid myself down to sleep, I told Matt about what was going through mind, and he asked me how I could do that and still graduate from Trinity, and I was telling him about it and that I only had four classes left to my degree. "Well I have intro to social work, econ, chem, and an elective. Or, um, wait! It's not an elective, it's American church history!!" A loophole!! So I still followed God and checked out the schools at home for church history courses or philosphy of religion courses and there were none to be found. So what does this mean? Well, for now a crisis is averted. If God reveals doors for me to walk through to go home, it will be so. But for now, I will be back home next fall, here at Trinity. Craziness, but God is good. Maybe He was just checking me to make sure I was willing to give up what I love in order to follow Him, but who knows the mind of God? Not I, well, not completely I guess, if at all.

Well other news. I am 14-2 after day one of March madness!! Go Kansas!! We watched "Don't You Hate Pants?" the director's cut again tonight, how I love that movie, so much fun making and watching. I really love these guys, they're dopeness. Justin McRoberts played at FAT tonight and it was good, I really like him, he tells a lot of stories and it makes the concert more enjoyable. He sang a line about someone tripping while they run and I thought about Angie, and told her later and she said she thought about herself as well, and wondered if anyone else thought about her. It was funny, you had to be there I guess. I am loving that I can wear sandals again, they're so nice and breathable, how wonderful. Gosh, I think I might just make it folks, I just might.

In closing, my thoughts regarding the war. I hear people say 'pray for peace' and see these hippees on tv protesting. Well folks, God certainly loves peace, and that is a huge part of His nature. But how easily we forget taht He is a just God, seeking justice in all things. Our president is seeking God, and hopefully is listening. God wants justice, hopefully George does too. So DO pray for peace, but DO NOT forget to pray for justice and that our troops and our nation may provide justice in humility and without it being in a self-seeking manner. Peace, Justice, Humility, walking hand in hand, they are beautiful. Your assignment: hug someone you normally don't hug, ask if you can pray for someone, or go up to someone you normally don't say 'I love you' to and tell them you love them. Love, it can change the world...