Thinking about friends tonight, one in particular, by the name of Emily Dreher. Emily is an amazing girl, and this is not putting her down in anyway, its just something that happens. My senior year in high school, after I had become a Christian, Em and I became quick friends as I needed some Christian friends in my life. She is one of the sweetest girls I have ever met, and loves God very much. I looked up to her and learned a lot from her. There was a time when I consider her as "more than a friend" but it was short lived, and we learned to move past it.

I thought that Em and I would be best friends forever, I honestly believed that. Then we both went to college out of state, me to Trinity in north Chicago, and she to Northwestern in St. Paul in Minn. Well, I called her last week, just looking for her sister to find out where Chad was. We haven't talked since Christmas break, and only quite briefly then. She is getting married in June, is quite busy with the wedding and school.

I don't really think about her very much, she has no pictures on my desk, she has become a former best friend. As sad as this sounds, it is true. A lot of my friendships from high school are headed this way. I haven't hung out with any of my non-Christian friends from high school since last summer, which was once the entire summer. I talk to Chad on rare occurances, which is the same with Hillary. Katie is now married and we really haven't hung out since Christmas break my junior year, but at least now she has a good excuse. Jason and I talk quite frequently and I am glad for this, because I think that boy needs someone to spill his gut to every once and a while.

I am a completely different person than even last summer. I think on a different level than I used to, I like art, I like different music, I would rather pray than talk about sports, I would rather think and write than watch sportscenter. A lot people at home don't get that, they want me to be that crazy Trav I used to be. They always joke about me being a crazy driver and listening to that punk rock music. I don't even like to speed anymore, and I have been listening to a lot of classical music lately. When I go home they want to act like everything is the same, I don't, I like the changes in me. So you see that it is difficult for me to sustain growing friendships with these people. It won't be easy this summer, I have great friends here at school. I am not willing to claim that we will be best friends forever, but I sure hope so. I know that God will place great friends in my life, and those that I am friends with now will always hold a special place in my heart. you have my love

p.s. Kim makes a good point, what does that ending mean? Well, it means that I love you all, whoever reads this, I love you. Thats it :) hope that helps Kim!!

p.p.s. A good song posted on Life After Vis tonight, please check it out.

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