I was talking yesterday with Matt and Jessica about the "senior rush" to find a spouse and what the drive behind it is all about. One of them, I believe it was Matt, said that it had to do with being in a transition season of life and that a committed relationship provides some added stability through that time. As I enter that season of life I realize that he is fairly correct in saying that. My parents will still support me, but not as they did when I graduated high school. I may still be welcome in the house, but both they and I know that I would be happier living somewhere else. I don't think that this mentality was at play when Katie and I dated, and hopefully my reliance on God and the strength of His grace will be enough to get me through this season. Not that I am opposed to being in a committed relationship, but that the motives of that relationship would be pure and not self-seeking.

New topic: I fear the suburbs. Sure they have great schools, are safe and provide nice homes but as I drove throught the vast cookie-cutter neighborhoods of Clive last night I realized how sad they are. All the same looking houses, all tan mini-vans with 2.5 kids. I don't look forward to growing up. At Urbana I think I am just going to ask people if they will pay me to travel the world and write books. Maybe someone will pay me for it someday. Shaa, and monkeys might fly out of my... well you get the picture. Long live the woodlands, praire lands, beaches and mountains. peace, my love is with... you!