Next

I have been thinking about what is "next" lately. I suppose it's a good time for it. Winter has, I hope, officially ended and there is an abundant amount of new life growing in the out-of-doors. The semester is ending, which points my focus to the classes I have on the horizon. If my mind wasn't already thinking about the possibilities of dating someone, the fact that a lot of relationships are beginning or blossoming into the "M" word, and the collapse of the Her? Campaign would bring my thoughts towards the idea of romance. Another season of Lost is ending. People are moving. And so on. So what is next?

I have a year of classes left, then a summer internship. Hopefully this internship will be somewhere that I can stay. I know I've listed places that I am thinking about, but there are really only three (some days four) places that I will seriously look into moving to - or staying in. It feels weird. When I finished at Trinity I knew that my only bet was to go home again. This time that really isn't an viable option, meaning that I have to move on. And I want to move on. This next chapter of my life has been delayed long enough.

I daydream about what it would be like to live like an actual adult. As much as I love the freedom offered by being a student, at times it seems flat. I do so much and, if I'm not careful and purposeful, all that I do can be of very little substance.

The next year, as they all do, will go fast. It will be a busy summer then two busy semesters and I will be at the next step. I can only hope that I'll be ready. I have this idea that it would be a lot easier to take this next step with someone, even if it was a friend. I'm not sure I see that happening, but I guess there's still a year left for that to come to fruition.

For those of you thinking that I had abandoned this blog 'o mine, I have to say that I considered it. Briefly. I've enjoyed blogging so much that I can't just give it up. I may be busier/lazier than previous blogging eons, but maybe that's why I ought to keep writing. I've been thinking that I may write a story (from my life or from my mind) every week, if just to keep my mind thinking about the narrative. Hopefully I can continue telling this story, I'd like to give this chapter a good ending while getting ready for whatever is next. you have my love.